While she was in pain, you only hurt her more. So you failed from there, not only as her lover but also as a human being.
She was already carrying a heavier burden of pain than she was letting on. She was fighting silently in battles that didn't even get your attention. She was struggling to keep herself from breaking down. In the meantime, she had begun to question her own worth, to be more absorbed in thought than necessary, and to try to be crushed by life. But she never forgot to stand up for herself. The tragedy was that in the midst of all these difficulties, you were just another wound that she was crying out for.
When she sought comfort from you, you gave her only confusion. When she tried to get close to you, you simply maintained distance. She hoped that you would protect her, but you were convincing her that she was worthless. Instead of making her pain your own, you made her suffer even more. Instead of protecting her, you were becoming a threat to her. So from that point on, you failed her.
Because she doesn't need a lover to whisper comforting words to her only in easy times. She needs him most in the stormy times when she is falling apart and breaking inside. When she pretends that everything is going well, shouldn't you show her that you know the misery she is hiding from the world and not leave her alone? Unfortunately, you were not such an understanding lover. So she had to endure the pain that was as heavy as lead alone. You were insensitive to her pain, but you expected every kind of support from her.
You will one day realize the rarity of the warm love she has poured out on you. It is a love that has conquered selfishness. But by the time you realize everything, it will be too late. By then you will have lost her. But she will not have any unwavering hatred for you. Perhaps she still loves you. But by then she will have realized that she should love herself even more. So she will be experiencing the comfort of life with more peace, joy and happiness than ever before.
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Sighs of loneliness, heavy tears in the smoke... I'm worried about the love of a sad tear... Give me a complaint to make up your mind in life... If you were here, it would be easy for me darling... In a dark bear teary thought.. The heart is relaxed for the beautiful girl.. My unspeakable moon is in my light.. If you were here, I would love you my love...

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